FUCK OFF!!!

REMEBER: NEVER EVER GOING TO A COIFFEUR AGAIN!

thankfully it's still cold outside and I can waer a cap without being stared at..
PISS OFF! -.-

Confusion

ich dachte immer im hier und jetzt zu leben wäre die beste entscheidung, die man fällen kann..
aber momentan bin ich mir echt nicht mehr so sicher.. was will ich eigentlich? x_x

aufmunterndes:


Some say goodnight -- at night --
I say goodnight by day --
Good-bye -- the Going utter me --
Goodnight, I still reply --

For parting, that is night,
And presence, simply dawn --
Itself, the purple on the height
Denominated morn.

what the hell xD

bin ich echt so bescheuert? xD
da kauf ich mir vor 3 wochen einen neuen mp3player + kopfhörer und was ist.. ich verliere ihn und weiß nichtmal wann und wo genau xD
oh man.

- new brain required

er war ein verfickter idiot!

schreibt das auf sein grab mit nem pfeil drunter: pissen bitte hier.

to recall the past

I met up with dennis again on friday.
we didn't see each other for over.. i don't know, months? And i enjoyed the day. yeah, i really did.
At his place I strarted to remember a lot of sad and funny things we did in the past. Like making pictures at abandoned places or partying like a rockstar in his room XD Hope i'll be able to spend some more time with him.
____________________________________

on saturday nezu + hoshi ♥ stayed at our house and we (oh i don't know how to say it in english x_x) did this thing where some people sit around a table with a glass in the middle and the alphabet placed in a circle around it. Everyone puts a finger on top of the glass, "call a ghost" and ask questions. The "ghost" gives the answer by moving to the letters... you know?
It was kind of creepy!!
I somehow miss them .___.

Best msn-talk ever :D

Sano.         the shadow of a man             (lernen) sagt:
*ich bin also ein spielzeug?
hiko sagt:
*mit herz und seele
*genannt mensch
Sano.         the shadow of a man             (lernen) sagt:
*tütütütü *buzzergeräusch ertönt* mein hert hast du
*hert XDD
*erm ja
*herz
*meinen herd hast du natürlich auch oô
hiko sagt:
**vor lachen vom bett knall
*xDDD
*juhu besitze einen herd
*gott wie süß
*<333
Sano.         the shadow of a man             (lernen) sagt:
*what the hell ist daran süß``
**?

*O_O
hiko sagt:
*ich fands grad voll niedlich
Sano.         the shadow of a man             (lernen) sagt:
**drop*
hiko sagt:
*gott ich glaube ich speicher das an x'D
*^^
Sano.         the shadow of a man             (lernen) sagt:
*was ist denn anspeichern : D?

All black.

Like a nightmare, a disaster.

Woke up this morning
And everything feels wrong.

I feel so disappointed, misunderstood and of all as if nobody takes me serious. Might I even be sad?
In the last few days I've been thinking about the same things over and over again and I finally realized that there's no solution at all.
Either I finish up with the past or chase after it. It doesn't matter anymore 'cause in the end there'll always be this feeling of emptiness.
Some say I'm just a cold and heartless person. Maybe they're totally right. But then I ask myself "Why does I feel all this pain pulsate at the place where my heart actually should be, when there's none?"


mood: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlOlVWpCnUs